newredshoes: I am so hot for Bucky Barnes in his dress uniform. (cap | shipping out tomorrow)
I'm here! I'm intact! I'm in my new place! I'm about 90% moved in, but, lololol, the things that are still at the old place are, for some reason, things like all my regular clothes and my blankets and sheets. Betta Barnes will probably come with me tomorrow, and a friend with access to a creepy van (for setting up races) maaaaaay be able to help me collect everything that's left (mostly kitchen and random stuff). Five amazing Russian men completely disassembled my apartment in 90 minutes yesterday, four flights of stairs and all, and the whole move was done in just over three hours. As I was standing on the sidewalk with my bike, talking to the guys about how to get to the new place, who but Terrible Neighbor comes sauntering by, with her two kids right there. "Bye, bitch," she says, like she's ~got me (or something???). I thought up all this clever shit I could have said later, but... no more. It's almost over.

So now I'm picking out paint colors and trying to find where I packed things like my remote controls. I am determined to have at least one small corner plastered with flamingo wallpaper. An awesome Puerto Rican guy from the Bronx set up my internet tonight; we traded pet photos and stories, and he told me all about his brother, a retired Marine, who lives on the island with a service pig named Cleopatra. (He also told me that he thought I was an autoresponse robot when I picked up his call, because my voice was so "creamy," which is a freaking delightful compliment.)

I kind of don't have much more to say at the moment. Therapy was good today. Things are just... looking up, and that's great. ♥

On this the 18th of October

  • Oct. 18th, 2017 at 8:25 PM
wanderlustlover: (Friends: Mail Call - enriana)
Dear Kimi,

I have been composing this letter in my head all day.

It's been several years since my last one of these, and I will make you no more excuse than the single I allow the universe for taking you in the first place -- time moves on. This remains unerringly true, does it not? Somehow past my teen age years, somehow past four years ago when I hit as many years alive after your passing as in a life with you, somehow to one year before it will be two decades since you passed.

I have pictures of you, on my living room wall, on my bookshelf in my classrooms. I cannot imagine you as a fixed point, an end dot, an end stop. I can't imagine you frozen time, waiting on a sister who cannot be. I can't imagine you still only thirteen, with babies and a flare for that pink Mexican dress. I hope that the color of your eyes in mind remains as vibrant in you as it will always in my memory, and that I can be allowed to wish and dream and imagine it forever in motion.

I am not that girl in her first high school years, who had never touched another country, never been brought to such traumatic lows and such overawing heights. I hope that it can only be as much with you. Perhaps, you have made the universe without a skin your playground. Perhaps, you race the light across the galaxy for fun, and the tales of your daring adventures are still returning to the earth at the snails pace of liminal light, arduous and tireless then the void.

Perhaps, you blow the stop lights into being for the small children who wish and stare hard enough from the front seats. Or maybe you have gone to where the bees when, to join the jam-bee-rie. Silly, right? Foolish? But you smiled, didn't you. I wish you, what I have always wished you, with all of my heart, and all of love (and even, yes, all of my absence-laden sorrow):

An endless existence of magic,
wherein there is only joy, and only wonder,
where pain can never touch you, and the only things for you
are made of beauty, and miracles, and laughter, and light, and love.



From the girl who will carry your heart in her heart forever,
Amanda

Oct. 18th, 2017

  • 7:40 PM
skygiants: (wife of bath)
I didn't deliberately read up on seventeenth-century English history history in preparation for A Skinful of Shadows; it was just a fortunate coincidence that I'd just finished Aphra Behn: A Secret Life right beforehand (thanks to [personal profile] saramily, who came into possession of the book and shoved it into my hands.)

The thing about the English Civil War and everything that surrounds it is that it's remarkably difficult to pick a team, from the modern perspective. On the one side, you've got Puritans and repressive morality and NO PLAYS OR GOOD TIMES FOR ANYONE, but also democracy and egalitarianism and a rejection of the divine right of kings and the aristocracy! On the other side, you've got GLORY IN THE DIVINELY ORDAINED KING AND THE PERFECTION OF THE ESTABLISHED SOCIAL ORDER, but also people can have a good time every once in a while and make sex jokes if they feel like it.

Anyway, one fact that seems pretty certain about Aphra Behn is that she grew up during the Interregnum and wrote during the Restoration, and was very much on Team Divine Kings Are Great. Would Puritans let a woman write saucy plays for the stage? NO SIRREE, NOT AT ALL, three cheers for the monarchy and the dissolute aristocracy!

There aren't all that many facts that are certain about Aphra Behn, especially her early years -- the first several chapters of this book involve a lot of posed hypotheticals about who she might have been, how she might have got her start, and who might have recruited her into the spying business. It does seem fairly certain she was a spy: code name Astrea, Agent 160. (Me, to [personal profile] aamcnamara, after seeing Or last month: "I don't know that I buy all that Agent 160 business, there's no way that was something they did in the 1660s!" I apologize for doubting you, Liz Duffy Adams.)

Admittedly she was the kind of spy who spent most of her spy mission stuck in a hotel in Antwerp writing irritated letters back to King Charles' intelligence bureaucracy, explaining that she would happily continue with her spying mission and do all the things they wished her to do if only they would send her enough money to PAY HER DANG HOTEL BILL. (They did not.)

Besides her unpaid expense reports, most of what is known about Aphra Behn comes from her context and her publications, and the things she wrote in them -- only some of which can absolutely definitively be traced to her at all; several of her short stories and novellas are disputed, including one of the ones I found most interesting, "Love-Letters Between A Nobleman And His Sister." This early three-volume novel is extremely thinly-veiled RPF about a wildly trashy historical trial involving King Charles' illegitimate son, his best friend, the best friend's wife, and the best friend's sister-in-law. All of these people then went on to be involved in a major rebellion, which the second and third volume of "Love-Letters" cheerfully fictionalizes basically as it was happening, in the real world.

One of the first English novels ever written by a woman [if it was indeed written by Aphra Behn], and arguably the first novel written EVER, and it's basically one of Chuck Tingle's political satires. This is kind of amazing to me.

OK, but back to things we think we're fairly sure we do know about Aphra Behn! She wrote a lot about herself talking, and about men judging her for how much she talked; she wrote a lot of things that were extremely homoerotic; she also wrote a lot about impotence; she was often short on money; she cheerfully stole other people's plots, then got mad when people accused her of stealing other people's plots; she rarely wrote anything that was traditionally romantic, and most of her work seems to have an extremely wicked bite to it. She did not read Latin, which did not stop her from contributing to volumes of translations of things from Latin. She was almost certainly not a member of the nobility, but she believed in divine right, and divine order, and divine King Charles, even though it seems likely from her writing that she did not believe personally in religion, or God, and the King probably never did pay her bills. An extremely interesting and contradictory person, living in an interesting and contradictory time.

And now I think I need to go find a good biography of Nell Gwyn - she's barely relevant to this biography (Aphra Behn dedicated a play to her, but there's no other information available about their relationship) and yet Janet Todd cannot resist throwing in a couple of her favorite historical Nell Gwyn one-liners and they're all SO GOOD.

It'll be twenty years next year.

  • Oct. 17th, 2017 at 7:23 PM
wanderlustlover: (Days We Won't Get Back - quebelly)
Sometimes it's the oddest stray piece of conversation that tucks into us, unwitting, unwarned, like a hook catching in the mouth of a fish, there in the middle of the stream, there just getting through dinner and another bite of chicken with cranberries and apple pieces.

It''s been nineteen year now.

As I said, at the end of my last piece, there was dinner with my mother, at the Cracker Barrel, where they sadly haven't started truly serving fall flavors yet. There will be more in November, but for now it there's just the add for Pumpkin Pancakes and the graciousness of my server who brought me hot cider. (In leiu of hot Earl Grey or Darjeeling that might keep me up all night.)

Expounding, or evading. (I feel like a fountain burst, words pushing everyday outward.
Everything I do involves words. How have I missed words so much at the very same time?)

It'll be twenty years next year.

I don't remember quite where it started. A conversation about how long we'd been having dinners/meals together, and whether it had or hadn't been a decade. Since it's either a decade, or one year short of a decade, since I got my masters. (What does it even say that it took me that long in life to get around to a job that required it? What does it say that I never even noticed until now?)

My mother's rebuttal, was with the second of those quote. For what? My sister's passing.




It's not surprising it's on her mind. It's tomorrow. Tomorrow it's nineteen years.
Tomorrow another day passes and she's still gone; the world still somehow turning.
wanderlustlover: (Confessions - crystalkirk)
I'm only here, and home, a few minutes between my long drive from work to home, and turning around to go out to my parent's house for my weekly Tuesday Night Dinner with Mom. I think a lot of about this. Writing. My journal. The space it used to be. Both how silent and empty it was the very beginning (in 2001, before I graduated), to the middle when it was the hot bed of the internet (both live journal, and dream width), to now with it's quiter, far more gamers heavy, placement.

I loved my journal from the beginning. It was my sacred place. My personal space. Even as it intersected with public space, it was not defined by it (save for that single, last, box-requiring, relationship). While I embrace the concept of the placebo effect as part plausibility,

I, also, feel like I have more space in my brain the last day or two, just jotting things down.

I miss this. All of it. My space, my place, my records, my larks.
The world that used to be all mine, but with open windows.

~*~

My children wrote goals for themselves last Monday (the one before this past one). They had to set three goals, and in the future beginning of each six weeks they will look at the goals they set and reflect on whether they met them. I set myself one goal and one sub-goal in relations to it.
Goal: Miss Tillman will go home at 4:30 on the days she does not have meetings and/or private tutoring scheduled, so that Amanda can go back to existing between more than 8pm and 6am, during which most time is spent sleeping.

Sub-Goal: Use extra hours recovered from not leaving at 5:30-6 every single night (which I did, basically, the whole first six weeks) to get back to the gym for weightlifting/swimming and to spend more time relaxing at home/anywhere that is not my desk chair.

Sub-Goal, Part 2: There will be no grading on Friday Nights or during Saturday's. Miss Tillman is banned from existing on these and may return, briefly on Sundays. Real life deserves it's forum and places just as much as being good at, and/or passionate about, the job you deeply love.
Today is the first time I've managed to do part one, as every afternoon last week had a meeting of some sort. No gym tonight, due to Mother's dinner, but I am readying my bag for standby in my car and continuing in this vein to getting more and more space to myself, my life, back to my normal routines. The healthy, happier, and more balanced I am, the better for my kids.

~*~

I've always been the girl who got more packages than anyone else in this neighborhood. That's a truth going on about five years now. But I have to wonder what story my mail man tells himself, or makes up, about the fact that 90% of my package/parcel flood of smaller packages these days come directly from Japan.

Morning made

  • Oct. 17th, 2017 at 6:44 AM
wanderlustlover: (Squee!!! - aisling12)
I'm still behind and need to pick something to do with my Introduction to Lear today, but my morning is made by the announcement of Yuletide Book Swap, Candy Swap & Drink Swap opening sign-ups last night. These swaps have become part and parcel with my Yuletide prep and enjoyment now and I'm excited to see everything Yuletide slotting into place for another amazing holiday season.

Yule Links & Calendars

  • Oct. 17th, 2017 at 6:41 AM
wanderlustlover: (Holiday: Yule - Faroh's blank)
Christmas Cards
Christmas Card Post One [Forthcoming]
Christmas Card Post Two [Forthcoming]
Christmas Card Post Three [Forthcoming]
Christmas Cards mailed, Dec 5th [forthcoming]


Fandom Stocking
Sign-ups, Nov ?? [ Comm here]
Stocking Link
Fill Some Stockings [forthcoming; post-Yuletide]


Holiday Wishlist
Holiday-Wishes, Nov ? [Comm Here]
Wish List, Nov 30 [Comm here, Entry Here]
Fill 3 wishes on Holiday Wishes [Forthcoming]
Fill 3 wishes on Wish List [Forthcoming]



'While we tell of Yuletide Treasure Fic
Sign-ups, Open - Oct 1
Sign-up, Completed - Oct 7
Assignment Received - Oct 10

Yuletide Letter [Here]
Canon Rewatching [Forthcoming]

Yuletide's Past Meme, December 15th [Forthcoming]

Master Index Post [here]
Memo Notes: Misses Claus, Chromatic Creating, Crueltide, Yuletide Drabble Madness, Wrapping Paper, Fem


'While we tell of Yuletide Treasure Swap
Sign-Up's, Oct 17 - Completed
Swap Ship Deadline, Nov 13th - [Forthcoming]
Mine: Sent/Received
Book Swap - [Forthcoming]
Candy Swap - [Forthcoming]
Drink Swap - [Forthcoming]

Theirs: Sent/Received
Book Swap - [Forthcoming]
Candy Swap - [Forthcoming]
Drink Swap - [Forthcoming]






Oct-Dec To Do's, in Order/Due Dates

[Forthcoming]

may your christmas be merry and bright

  • Oct. 16th, 2017 at 10:04 PM
wanderlustlover: (Holiday: Yule - Faroh's blank)
I have too many plates already spinning with me ...and now we tell of Yuletide Treasures (including 6 mini challenges & the 3 swaps) to throw my hat into writing for Holly Poly this year, but I'm so delighted by it's simple existence.

I can't wait to see what stories come out of there. It'll be a nice boost in early January.
wanderlustlover: (Beauty Sailor Moon - allinye)
This year has become something of an anime central in my world. I had watched the occasional show a long time before now. Sailor Moon happened throughout my childhood. Ouran High School Host Club happened during Milliways, and playing Haruhi. Utena Revolutionary Girl started during the end of Stephanie and a finished nearly two years later with Laura. The smattering of a million things in-between. Ghost in the Shell, and Akira, and Evangelion, Ronin Warriors, Cowboy Bebop, and on as advised seldom over time.

But, it had been a while even between Utena, and the years after cosplaying it, and Laura dragging me into Yuri!!! On Ice one fateful snowstorm last Christmas break. Somewhere in there, between Yuri!!! On Ice getting a best friend & roleplaying hook in and another girl friend in Geek Girl Brunch who was only too helpful with getting me recs, I fell hook, line and heavy metal weight into the anime section checking off things down lists as I was going.

I watched Your Name and A Silent Voice. Had my heart blown apart (possibly never to entirely return back to the shape is was) by Grave of the Fireflies. I loaded up in rows Princess Jellyfish, Madoka Magic, Free, and Attack on Titan. Movie Madness Night (an every last Friday of the month event I put on for friends now) saw me through watching the first episode or two of Food Wars.

I fell not-quite-by-accident into The Ancient Magus Bride, without any help, simply due to following some news on CrunchyRoll once that subscription happened. I bought an early, full pass, to Fathom's Studio Ghbili Fest 2017, even though I've seen all the movies at least once. (It's been glorious seeing them on the big screen though.)

I joined my city's once-a-month free screenings at a movie theatre by Anime at the Alamo group, but I've only managed one month of like four not to be either already scheduled on the night of their showing or not to have already scheduled something on every other night of the week and desperate for a break. For that night we watched Dimension W. I watched Castlevania with all my friends/family when it hit Netflix.

Somewhere in the late spring, almost out-for-the-summer, I got voluntold into The Anime Club at my high school (and the Nerdvana Con Meeting), which has only just started these last few weeks. The first meeting they listed anime's they might want to watch across the year and came up with a truly impressive 70+ individual titles. Their first three watching Friday's were dedicated to Princess Mononoke, and this Friday they'll move on to the first three episodes of Death Note.

They meet every Friday, but they probably won't end up watching more than 3-6 episodes of everything. We're doing a roulette tasting wheel of everything (and possibly there will be holiday themed pieces, too). If nothing else, it's going to end up with me exposed to a couple dozen different shows, all of which I might end up having to watch the whole rest of.

Which does not even touch the fact I have a queue longer than my arms of series rec's, too.




Pieces and parts of this ramble brought to you by the plethora of Yuri!!! On Ice things on my couch and shelves, watching the two new episodes of the newly started Ancient Magus' Bride post-OVA serial, and catching a (necessary to be pre-watched before handing off to the children on Friday) episode of Death Note with Laura before bed.
wanderlustlover: (Fan Girl - anon)
[ Part I | Part II | Part III | Part IV | Part V

Borrowing over a fandom meme from [personal profile] musesfool (who in turn is borrowing it over from [personal profile] misbegotten). 50 questions, because it seems a sensible thing to start in the middle of the night when I need something to place in the giant silence headed precisely nowhere, but did, at the very least, decide not to be a migraine.

Fandom Questions 50, Part I

Ship Questions for your Current Fandom

11. Who is your current OTP?
Given we left off last time, in my current fandoms being Yuri!!! On Ice, my current OTP obsession is Yuri Katsuki/Victor Nikiforov.

12. Who is your current OT3?
I...don't really have one in this canon? I often do at times, and I've read a handful of Chris/Victor/Yuri pieces and even Victor/Yuri/Yurio pieces in the long slog through tons of fic being written in A03 for this fandom in the spring/summer, but none of the OT3's are my hardcore loves.

Wait. I lied. The whatever it is/isn't that's going on with Emil & The Crispino's. I don't really ship incest much (>_> Yeah, I know. I have that one Skywalker fic, I know, and I've totally written meta on Simon-River, and read Flowers in the Attic as a kid). But. Emil and the Crispino's for serious. Emil, who flirts with both twins and tries to get both their attention, and who spends time checking them both out.

I'm here for whatever is happening with those three.

13. Any NoTPs?
None? I don't really have any glaring red alert problems with ships in this fandom.

14. Go on, who are your BroTPs?
The main trio, I suppose goes here? Yuri, Victor, and Yurio as the trio the art depicts as happening, even if the canon hasn't made happen in the slightest yet. I'm really living for the day we'll finally have canon on how that happens and why and where.

I want to see more of Yurio in the land that the last episode/two shows us, addressing that not just Victor, but Yurio, too has gotten his L-words of "love" and "life" from Yuri, as well. That he both carried it and shows it in different ways than anything we've seen with Victor. I want to see what happens to the Victor & Yurio dynamic, too, especially as the art paints these three always together, and yet interviews are still saying that Victor is still only truly his happier relaxed self about only Yuri, himself.

Everything about Yuri & Phichit's cutest best friends thing ever, where Phichit attached himself to Yuri's life forever and didn't let go, and Yuri totally came to appreciate it and Phichit and never wants that to end, no matter where in the world they are. Also, Victor & Chris' best-flirty-competitors-frenemies thing. I'm around for more in that book, too.

15. Is there an obscure ship which you love?
Early on Yakov/Lilia, and everything with a side of Minako/Lilia.

16. Are there any popular ships in your fandom which you dislike?
No?

17. Who was your first OTP and are they still your favourite?
Victor & Yuri, and yes, a million times over. My pocketbook is still feeling the constant burn, as is my inability to wait for tags, or for new merchandise/art, or for each of the new events I stalk across the universe, tracking down every crumb said everywhere about them by the creators.

18. What ship have you written the most about?
Given I'm playing Yuri over there, I'd have to say that answer is obvious.

19. Is there a ship which you wished you could get behind, but you just don’t feel them?
I'm not really all that invested in almost any other ship but the main one in this canon. I like skimming them in reading, and a lot of them come up. I have a passing fancy now and then with Sara/Mila. But really I'm not massively all over the other ships that are sailing in the YOI waters.

20. Any ships which you surprised yourself by liking?
Isabella/JJ. I don't have any true love for JJ as a character by himself, but I adore Bella's absolutely, unwavering dedication to the boy she loves and her entire scene standing up, crying, and still shouting his name, even in his defeat, has me almost teary eyed every time. I'm here for more Isabella Bela in the future, too.
wanderlustlover: (Friends: Be Gentle - erised_dream)
I feel a lot lately like a huge puzzle that is rambling around, shaken and tossed and dropped, still within the confines of it's unopened box. All the sides rubbing against each other, but none of them in true connection in that darkness. None of them seeing the bigger picture, even seeing the colors on their opposite sides in that less than a square foot of darkness.

My work goes well. Actually, that is an understatement. After three years in Special Ed, and two and half months spent having panic attacks that I would never be able to handle this new job, I am doing stupendous for a first year alone. The lion share of my kids adore me, my down to earth nature, the music I play daily. They come for tutoring, and they come for recommendations to every which college and future placement.

My failure rate for my first six weeks was under 9%, which was not matched by anyone in either of my Junior or Senior AP teams, or my friend down in Pre-Ap I for English. I haven't gotten angry at them yet, but I am firm about my rules and about the things I will and I won't accept.

It's everything else that seems to be tossed up a lot. I'm too busy in the afternoons with extracurricular's: Leader Academy, Book/Comic Book Club, and Anime Club. I'm on the committee boards for Nerdvana Con, the SLO Pilot for Junior AP, and The Principal's Advisory (though at least Nerdvana Con's weekly planning meetings will end soon, as Nerdvana Con is in two weeks, thank you every deification everywhere).

My laundry hasn't really been finished in three weeks, even though I did 2/3rds of it the last time I started. Yuri on Ice is the one thing that really glues anything together in my evenings and mornings, which is too much to ask of one small show. The SciFi Meetup is generally, mostly, taking care of itself, while Geek Girl Brunch never does such a thing and goes up and down like a ship in the waves.

My DM is pregnant and DND sessions have been canceled for a good while. My health. . . probably deserves its own post, as it's another shaken around box without many air holes in it for the scrabbling that goes on inside of it anytime I have to think about it.

I miss my spiritual groups with a longing, an emptiness, and a nostalgia all swirled together that defies terms to name it. There are bridges I cannot and would not uncross, for things that were not good being done to others, and yet these spaces and places remain empty and I long.

I'm rambling without a course. My tiller is missing a bit lately.

one word at a time

  • Oct. 16th, 2017 at 9:58 AM
silveraspen: moiraine (NS comic) writing in a journal (wot: writing in a journal)
What 2017 has been doing for me is making me realize that I can’t do work in the same way I used to.

The above-linked piece by John Scalzi has a lot of good points, but I think the linktext I chose from it is really the core, for me.
wanderlustlover: (Love: Give Me Your Hand - bookelfe)
Borrowing over a fandom meme from [personal profile] musesfool (who in turn is borrowing it over from [personal profile] misbegotten). 50 questions, because it seems a sensible thing to start in the middle of the night when I need something to place in the giant silence headed precisely nowhere, but did, at the very least, decide not to be a migraine.

Fandom Questions 50, Part I

1. What was the first fandom you got involved in?
It's hard to place the timing exactly, but it is either X-Men or Elfquest, as both started when I was knee-high to grasshopper. Given the X-Men cartoon is, apparently from 1992 (making me 9), and Elfquest was being defended, paper-dolled for Barbie, and read at least by kinder/first grade, it appears it's likely Elfquest. Which I'm entirely good with.

2. What is your latest fandom?
Yuri on Ice. It is a blackhole of beauty from which my pocketbook knows no end currently.

3. What is the best fandom you’ve ever been involved in?
That. . .is a super hard question.

The fandoms themselves are long and varied, happened on many platforms, and go back as far as Subreality and Chat House, and as forward as Tumblr, Plurk, and Discord. I don't know if I have any specific, singular fandom involvements that have been radiant star favorites, but I have loved deeply a lot of cross-fandom things that I never lose love for and spend time reminiscing on still.

Milliways is one that never goes out of style for that.
So is while we tell of Yuletide treasures which I'll never not do.

4. Do you regret getting involved in any fandoms?
In the longest of long runs, I think I feel sometimes that one day I'm going to look back and feel that way about Twilight, but the Sparkle Mafia of Milliways really was just filled with too many amazing writers and I spent too long lost in the joy of writing eighty years before the books.

I am uncertain if I regret getting into a not-quite-a-fight with the actress from Hawaii Five-0 that I did, and still look at my life baffled that certain actress got that involved with me personally for show captioned write-ups.

5. Which fandoms have you written fanfiction for?

That is the sound of my pained laughter you can't hear, because the answer is like -- five billion?

My A03 reports it as the following:
Hawaii Five-0 (2010) (157), Twilight Series - Stephenie Meyer (63), Once Upon a Time (TV) (58), Robin Hood (BBC 2006) (57), Milliways (38), X-Men (Comicverse) (31), Chronicles of Narnia - C. S. Lewis (24)
X-Men - All Media Types (20), Babylon 5 (18), Supernatural (17)

Hunger Games Trilogy - Suzanne Collins (12), Harry Potter - J. K. Rowling (11), Smallville (10), Farscape (9), X-Men (Alternate Timeline Movies) (9), The Ordinary Princess - M.M. Kaye (8), Batman (Comics) (7), Beauty and the Beast (TV 1987) (7), DCU (Comics) (6), Tarot (Divination Cards) (6), Ysabel - Guy Gavriel Kay (5), The Fionavar Tapestry - Guy Gavriel Kay (5)

Becoming Jane (2007) (4), Star Wars - All Media Types (4), Robin Hood (Traditional) (3), Marvel (3), Hell on Wheels (TV) (3), Stargate SG-1 (3), Holes - Louis Sachar (3), Grey's Anatomy (3), Batgirl (Comics) (2), New Mutants (2), The Woods (2006) (2), The Sundering - Jacqueline Carey (2), Charmed (TV) (2), Superman (Comics) (2), Star Wars Prequel Trilogy (2), Animorphs - Katherine A. Applegate (2), Superman - All Media Types (2), Firefly (2), Haven (TV) (2), Terminator: The Sarah Connor Chronicles (2), Xena: Warrior Princess (2)

Alias (TV) (1), The Last Unicorn - Peter S. Beagle (1), The Night Circus - Erin Morgenstern (1), The L Word (1), Robin Hood (1973) (1), Spider-Man - All Media Types (1), Wayfarer Redemption - Sara Douglass (1), Sanctuary (TV) (1), Kushiel's Legacy - Jacqueline Carey (1), Taken (TV 2002) (1), The Sandman (Comics) (1), Jeremiah (TV) (1), Burn Notice (1), Labyrinth (1986) (1), Titans (Comics) (1), Revenge (TV) (1), Princess Tutu (1), Nightwing (Comics) (1), The Originals (TV) (1), Green Arrow (Comics) (1), X-Men (Movieverse) (1), Battlestar Galactica (2003) (1), Leverage (1), Weapon X (Comics) (1), Roswell (TV) (1), Arthurian Mythology & Related Fandoms (1), Kabuki (Comic) (1), Heartwood (1), Terminator (Movies) (1), Robin (Comics) (1), Buffy the Vampire Slayer (1), Elfquest (1), Dark Angel (1), The Symphony of Ages - Elizabeth Haydon (1), Robin of Sherwood (1), Glee (1), Terminator - All Media Types (1), Star Trek: Voyager (1), Band of Brothers (1), The Lord of the Rings - All Media Types (1), Teen Titans - All Media Types (1), Tortall - Tamora Pierce (1)


6. List your OTP from each fandom you’ve been involved in.

Uh. This is going to be long and not as easy to copy-paste sadly.

Danny Williams/Steve McGarrett. Edward Cullen/Carlise Cullen. Snow White/Prince Charming, Emma Swan/The Huntsman & Gold/Belle. Marian/Robin Hood (which will also be trumped for life by Marian/Caspian, too). Jean Grey/Logan, Jean/Ororo, Kitty/Illyana, Kitty/Piotr. Lyta Alexander/Zach. Jo Harvelle/Dean Winchester (but also Jo/Dean/Rachel, Jo/Kol/Thorfinn). Peeta/Katniss. Ron Weasley/Hermione Granger. Chloe/Clark/Lex. Dick Grayson/Barbara Gordon. Anakin/Padme, Luke/Mara Jade. Meredith/Dereck. Piper/Leo. Wash/Zoe, Inara/Mal, Kaylee/Simon. Lois/Clark. Vaugn/Sydney. Marco/Celia. Helen/John.

7. List your NoTPs from each fandom you’ve been in.

I don't really end up running around much with NoTP's as I'm very much a ship and let ship kind of girl. The only thing I don't do is seriously underaged ships, and by seriously I mean like deeply, seriously, non-content age of consent underaged, like kids-kids, below the age of physical maturation. It's on my far as you can go no wrong squick.

8. How did you get involved in your latest fandom?
I was sitting in a snowstorm in Laura's house over Christmas when I got to watch the whole finished season, and there was light consideration of the topic afterward, but it all sorts of snowballed when Shannon threw one of the characters into a sandbox and then there was gaming, and then there were cons, and then my entire life turned into direct to the runners stream updates, acrylics buying, and zine stalking.

It's probably only a matter of time for the fic bug bites me and that happens, too.

9. What are the best things about your current fandom?

That even though it's going through a sort of mid-fall lull, there's still new news, new merchandise, new zines, and new canon on the horizon not far away. Plus, a whole lot of the fandom is hugely excited for the actual Senior Grand Prix Finale (5 days and counting now! <3), which is all sorts of infectious and lovely to both watch and take part in.

10. Is there a fandom you read fic from but don’t write in?

Tons. Especially around Yuletide time. But, also, because even when I've wandered off from a fandom I'm still following a ton of subscriptions on A03 which means I get updates from people in those fandoms still, too, or even more fandoms they fall into and then I end up reading those, as well.
wanderlustlover: (Lonely Searching- Linda)
It's late, and it's been awhile.

You know that when you start clearing out every old following setting and somehow lost how to get to your friends page for about three minutes of perusing the FAQ. I have been thinking a lot about my journal in amid a lot of missing things and shifting places. I fluffed the pillows and I'm going to go fill in the beginning of a long a survey while I don't do the only thing I should be doing to be able to be up, again, at 6: go to sleep.

It's a thing. Maybe will get to that at a point, too.

FIC: A Sunset Romance

  • Oct. 15th, 2017 at 12:20 PM
gramarye1971: Old Ways (TDIR: Old Ways)
Took me much longer than I expected to whip this fic into a final shape, but it feels good to post it now. So have a story wherein even my fake dating reads like gen-fic, and I can't stop myself from finishing with an A. E. Housman quote because I am predictable like that.


Title: A Sunset Romance
Fandom: The Dark Is Rising Sequence
Rating: G
Relationship: Merriman Lyon & Miss Greythorne (or perhaps Merriman Lyon/Miss Greythorne)
Summary: At the end of the summer season in Trewissick, the Professor has returned to stay at the Grey House. This time, however, he has brought a lady with him...and from the look of things, their relationship goes beyond anything that might be interpreted as mere friendship.
Notes: An expanded version of a trope prompt ficlet, courtesy of the ever-delightful [personal profile] rymenhild, who requested fake dating, Merriman Lyon. Once I stopped giggling at the prompt, I started to see how it might actually work! So continuing my original response, here is a few thousand words of Merriman and Miss Greythorne fake dating, set in the autumn between the events of Over Sea, Under Stone and The Dark Is Rising. (Also on AO3.)

A Sunset Romance )
newredshoes: Woman in religious ecstasy, surrounded by art implements (&lt;3 | patron saint)
Some dates have been set, some things are happening, I am trying not to take late-afternoon/early evening naps! Moving trucks on Tuesday afternoon, three years to the day after I moved in here. Getting internet at the new place on Monday afternoon (in theory), and so should be getting keys... on Monday afternoon? Apparently this is very complicated. I already sense a pattern with this leasing company (ho ho, no shit!), but fingers crossed I just won't need anything ever. IT WILL BE FINE. Everything will be fine once I am in a new space!

Packing is starting to feel like psychological warfare, though. I have tried to make a list of what's left, which would in some ways be easier to handle if I could get access to my apartment, which legally becomes mine tomorrow. But it's like... the kitchen and the decision-fatigue-inducing papers and knickknacks and the "can I run all over Brooklyn and Manhattan to donate this before Tuesday and still get all my work done?" stuff. I suspect there will be a lot of Tuesday morning "throw it into a garbage bag! God will know his own!" going on.

TV is still good at the moment, though. Riverdale is peak ridonk, The Good Place is making me SO OUTRAGEOUSLY HAPPY and Jane the Virgin is finally back and I'm so overwhelmed by love that I can only watch it in chunks. I finally saw Kung Fury with my friend H, who came over last night for loafing; it was staggering, and it leaves Netflix in a week, so get on that, friends.

Neighbor has not messed with me since Monday night, at least. They seemed to be gone for a few days, but they're definitely back now. I'm worried about that window when the movers are coming in and out for a bit, but there's no way around it and hopefully, well. Movers.

I am still crashing and all my books are in boxes.

Oct. 14th, 2017

  • 2:40 PM
skygiants: Mosca Mye, from the cover of Fly Trap (the fly in the butter)
I was resigned to waiting until October 17th for A Skinful of Shadows to come out in the US. However, [personal profile] izilen, horrified at both the long wait after the UK publication and the clear inferiority of the US cover, acquired a copy on my behalf and mailed it over the ocean -- after first warning me it was the darkest Frances Hardinge book yet.

Having now read it, I don't know that it's actually that much creepier than the first third of Cuckoo Song, or the bits of Lie Tree where Faith in her deepest self-loathing slithers snakelike through the island purposefully destroying everything she touches. It definitely has a higher body count -- a much higher body count -- but I mean it's a book about a.) ghosts and b.) the English Civil War so maybe that's to be expected ...?

Like many of Hardinge's books, it features:
- a ferocious underestimated girl struggling to hold onto a sense of self in a world that wishes her to have no such thing
- a recognition that the people you love and who believe that they love you will sometimes betray you, sometimes for reasons they believe are good and sometimes not
- a ruthless and terrible female antagonist whom the heroine cannot help but respect and admire
- a struggling journey up out of solitude towards a coalition built of necessity with the least likely individuals
- including an undead bear
- admittedly this is the first Hardinge book to include an undead bear
- it is also the first Hardinge book about literal ghosts, a lot of ghosts, a lot of very unpleasant and sinister ghosts but also some ghosts for whom I have a very deep affection, including the very bearlike bear.

I also have a great deal of affection for Makepeace - the illegitimate scion of a very old noble family that is quite confident it will be able to chew her up and spit her out, and finds itself repeatedly mistaken. I don't think I love her yet quite as much as Trista or Faith or Mosca, but that's what I said about Faith right after I read The Lie Tree, too, and LOOK AT ME NOW.

Duma Key, by Stephen King

  • Oct. 14th, 2017 at 11:39 AM
rachelmanija: (Books: old)
Of all the new-to-me books by Stephen King that I’ve read in the last year, this and the middle Dark Tower books are the ones I’ve re-read the most. I’ve re-read Duma Key three times in the last two years, and I can tell it’s a book I’ll keep coming back to. Here’s the first page:

How to draw a picture


Start with a blank surface. It doesn't have to be paper or canvas, but I feel it should be white. We call it white because we need a word, but its true name is nothing. Black is the absence of light, but white is the absence of memory, the color of can't remember.

How do we remember to remember? That's a question I've asked myself often since my time on Duma Key, often in the small hours of the morning, looking up into the absence of light, remembering absent friends. Sometimes in those little hours I think about the horizon. You have to establish the horizon. You have to mark the white. A simple enough act, you might say, but any act that re-makes the world is heroic. Or so I’ve come to believe.

Imagine a little girl, hardly more than a baby. She fell from a carriage almost ninety years ago, struck her head on a stone, and forgot everything. Not just her name; everything! And then one day she recalled just enough to pick up a pencil and make that first hesitant mark across the white. A horizon-line, sure. But also a slot for blackness to pour through.

Still, imagine that small hand lifting the pencil ... hesitating ... and then marking the white. Imagine the courage of that first effort to re-establish the world by picturing it. I will always love that little girl, in spite of all she has cost me. I must. I have no choice. Pictures are magic, as you know.


On the one hand, this is my favorite prose passage in the book. On the other hand, the entire book has that same atmosphere and themes: the magic of art, the bleakness of loss, the terror of opening a door into darkness, human empathy and connections, and, always, how making a mark on paper is both simple and difficult, the dividing line between nothing and everything.

Unusually for Stephen King, Duma Key is set in on the Florida coast – an incredibly vivid and atmospheric Florida, which becomes enough of a character in its own right to make the book a very satisfying sea-soaked, sunset-lit Gothic.

I am pleased to say that this is one of the least gross King books I’ve read, bar a rotting ghost or two. It’s also one of the scariest, in a very classic “terrify by keeping the scary stuff mostly off-page” manner. The Big Bad is never quite seen directly, and is one of King’s creepiest and most mythically archetypal figures.

It’s also one of King’s most heartbreaking books. Almost all the characters are really likable, and if not likable, than still very human. The Girl Who Loved Tom Gordon opens with, The world had teeth and it could bite you with them any time it wanted. Duma Key is about the beauty and magic and redemption of the world, but also about the teeth.

It begins with a wealthy self-made man, Edgar Freemantle, getting into an absolutely horrific accident while visiting one of his job sites. He loses an arm and gets some brain damage; he’s barely out of the hospital before his marriage has ended, his life as he knew it has ended, and he’s on the brink of suicide.

After some talks with his psychiatrist, he ends up taking up art, which he’d enjoyed as a boy but never pursued, and moving to a cabin in the Florida Keys. There he meets a chatty guy, Wireman, who’s the caretaker for Elizabeth, an elderly woman with Alzheimer’s – both of whom have pasts which slowly, heartbreakingly unfold over the course of the book. Edgar finds that painting is his new passion and genuine talent… but his paintings are odd. Eerie. And they can change things…

The first half of the book follows Edgar as he recovers from his accidents, explores his new talent and gains critical and commercial success, and loses some old friends and gains some new ones. The emotional and physical recovery from the accident and its fallout (which doesn't mean he'll ever be the same as he was before) was incredibly well-done and vivid. I don't know if it was technically correct, but it felt very believable.

In classic Gothic fashion, there’s creepy stuff going on simultaneously, but it’s comparatively subtle. I found this part of the book hugely enjoyable even though tons of scenes are just Edgar painting or eating sandwiches and shooting the breeze with Wireman. On the one hand, it probably could have been shorter. On the other hand, I could have happily gone on reading just that part forever.

And then the creepy stuff gets less subtle. A lot less subtle.

This has an unusual story arc. I’m putting that and other huge spoilers behind a cut, but I’ll also mention that even for King, the book has some very tragic aspects— ones which he’s explored before, but there’s one I’ll rot13.com (feed into the site to reveal) because it’s a specific thing that people may want to avoid. Gur cebgntbavfg’f qnhtugre vf xvyyrq. Fur’f na nqhyg ohg n lbhat bar (n pbyyrtr fghqrag) naq irel yvxnoyr, naq vg’f gur ovttrfg bs frireny thg-chapurf va gur fgbel. Nyfb, n qbt vf uvg ol n pne naq qvrf.

If that’s not a dealbreaker, I suggest not reading the rest of the spoilers because even though if I’d sat down and tried to figure out where the story was going, I probably could have, the experience of reading it feels unpredictable; you can guess the outlines but a lot of the details are unexpected.

Read more... )

Also, have some brighter things

  • Oct. 13th, 2017 at 3:43 PM
rachelmanija: (Firefly: Shiny Kaylee)
Femslash Exchange 2017 is open! The original fiction stories look especially tempting; also, there's Jane Eyre/Helen Burns. Off to read my gift story (resistance fighter/glamorous '40s singer) now!

Also, have two cats hugging:

Pull The Football - Save the World

  • Oct. 13th, 2017 at 11:57 AM
rachelmanija: (I wrote my own deliverance)
Are you worried about nuclear war? I am too. Keep reading for a way to stop it with one simple action.

Maybe you feel small and powerless. But many snowflakes make an avalanche. If we all move in the same direction, we'll be unstoppable. We will only fail if we choose not to act.

Trump has the power to order a pre-emptive nuclear strike for any reason - or no reason at all. He's always shadowed by a man with a briefcase of codes, called the "nuclear football," to enable him to launch nuclear missiles at any time. It would take less than five minutes from his order to the missiles being launched, and no one could stop him. Republican Senator Bob Corker says Trump is leading us into World War III. I believe him.

But we don't have to stand by and let it happen. Let's pull away that football!

Both House and Senate have bills to prevent the President from launching a pre-emptive nuclear strike without a congressional declaration of war. They're both called the Restricting First Use of Nuclear Weapons Act of 2017. (S. 200 - Senate, HR 669 - House.) Passing those bills may literally save the world.

How to save the world:

1. Contact your representatives in Congress. Ask them to co-sponsor the bill NOW, before it's too late.

2. Contact EVERYONE in Congress who might want to prevent a nuclear war. Usually people only speak to their own representatives. But with the fate of the entire world is at stake, it's worth contacting everyone who might listen.

3. Promote the Pull The Football campaign on social media. Trump isn't the only one who can use Twitter. Get on it and start tweeting #PullTheFootball.

Share this post on Facebook or Dreamwidth. Put up your own post on whatever social media you use. Ask your friends in person. If you know anyone in the media, contact them to get the word out. If you're not American, you can help by publicizing the campaign on social media that Americans follow.

How do I contact my representatives?

1. Resistbot is a free service that will fax, call, or write your representatives for you. Just text the word "resist" to 50409 to begin.

2. Call the Capitol Switchboard at (202) 224-3121 and ask to be connected to the representative of your choice.

I've contacted everyone. What now?

Contact them again. THIS IS THE MOST IMPORTANT PART. One water drop can be brushed away. Many water drops make a flood. Call, fax, or write as often as possible. Set aside 15 minutes every day to make as many calls or faxes as you can in that time. Relentlessness works - it's why the NRA is so successful. If they can do it, we can do it.

What do I say?

Page down for a sample script. Or speak or write in your own words.

Democrats to contact:

Every Democrat not currently sponsoring one of the bills. Thank them for their courage and service to the nation, and ask them to act now to save the world.

Thank the Democrats currently sponsoring the bills. There are 57 in the House and 9 in the Senate. Especially, thank Congressman Ted Lieu (sponsor of the House bill) and Sen. Edward Markey (sponsor of the Senate bill). Encourage them to step up their efforts to make it pass.

Republicans to contact:

The Republicans listed below are the most prominent who have voiced concerns about Trump. This is not an exhaustive list. There are more Republicans who might be receptive. For instance, all the House Republicans who just voted for more aid for Puerto Rico, and all Republicans who are retiring from their seats and so not worried about getting re-elected.

Sen. Bob Corker (202) 224-3344) warned us that Trump is setting the nation on a path to World War III. If you only contact one Republican representative, contact him. Thank him for his courage and urge him to follow through on his convictions.

Rep. Walter Jones (202) 225-3415 is the only Republican to support the bill. Thank him for his courage and urge him to get his colleagues onboard.

Other Republican senators to prioritize contacting: Susan Collins, Jeff Flake, Lindsey Graham, Orrin Hatch, Dean Heller, John McCain, Lisa Murkowski, Marco Rubio, and Bob Sasse.

Sample Script

Hello, my name is [your name.] I'm calling to ask Representative/Senator [their name] to co-sponsor the Restricting First Use of Nuclear Weapons Act of 2017. (S. 200 - Senate, HR 669 - House.)

I believe Republican Senator Bob Corker when he says we're on the brink of World War Three. No one benefits from a nuclear war. But we can stop it if we choose to. This may be the most important action Representative/Senator [their name] will take in their entire life. It may literally save the world. I urge them to co-sponsor the bill restricting first use of nuclear weapons. Thank you.

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