I may not be the biggest BAMF in the room at any given time, but I certainly try to be in the top three.

I've been in the theatre for over twenty years as a little bit of everything. Yes, I have welded upside down from a second story set in nothing but gauzy underwear half hour before a show opened. I prefer to keep my hair purple. And I run very quickly in four inch heels.

People!!

I need MCU icons! I realized I have none! :O!!!

HOOK ME UP. I need me some real life super hero pixels, stat!!

Hey internet!

I need some good book recs. Anyone have any romance novel or romantic tinted story recs? I want some deep, emotional make outs here, people. Or, it takes a while to get you together BUT WHEN YOU DO, OH BOY.

Will take books or fanfic.

I admit, I love me some regency or period romances. I'm a $.99 romance novel fiend. I love Courtney Milan! And similar type works. I ate up Sarah McLean's Rule of Scoundrels series, as a recent example. Highs and lows, for sure, but I liked it (I'm eeeeeeeeh on #2).

I also love me some spy-on-spy love. Fanfic with Natasha and Clint? Natasha and Bucky? GIVE ME YO RECS!!!

:D?

Hey there, internet!

One of the cosplays I plan for the con season this year is Black Widow ('cause she's AWESOME).

I'm going to have a catsuit made for me in about a month or two, once the designer and I decide on what the best material would be for the base. We're trying to decide if we're going more Avengers or comics (I am leaning toward any sort of artistic merging of both my designer desires, but I'm letting her make the decision since she is a master of four way stretch fabric).

I already have all my gun belts, but I think I'll invest in a small of back gun holster, a knife holster for thigh or in boot (haven't decided yet), and a good set of fake pistols.

My big purchase for this one was going to be a good, fancy wig. THAT DID NOT WORK OUT WELL. I'm still really fucking pissed about it, even after I got a partial refund from the shop owner (who, bluntly, was argumentative about their lack of actually styling the freaking wig because "that is easy").

So, I'm doing a restyle and a dying it.

( Images! )

I've been working out and keeping track in my dreamwidth privately the last several weeks, but fuck it, doing it so people can see!

warm up

ab work out

This one was too hard for me right now. Most things, able to do just fine, but the starfish side hip bump things and plank hip twists were too much. Did the best I could, tho! Probs won't do this one again for a while!

yoga stretch/cool down


Still love Fitness Blender! Still feel super embarrassed how out of shape I am, but I am doing it! At least 3 days a week, 20 - 45 mins a day for the last several weeks. I'm to work my way up to doing 5 days a week with about the same time periods. I CAN DO THIS!

Updating as we finish up watching Cosmos. (LOVED it! There might have been some household tears when Neil Degrasse Tyson started describing his meeting with Carl Sagan)

Today, in the kitchen...

I made up two soups! The whole household is dealing with minor colds, so it seemed the time. Both are stolen from Budget Bytes, with some minor alterations.

First, I did the chicken & lime soup. SO VERY GOOD. I used half an onion, since I am not an onion fan, and that was plenty for me. I also added a whole lime and probs half a lime from the lime juice we keep on hand. On top of the chicken recommended, I also shredded some leftover chicken from a roast that I had in the fridge. It was mostly thighs and legs, and worked out great! I put it in when I flaked the poaching chicken at the half hour. Also, added mushrooms that needed to get used. SO GOOD!

Because I added lots of extras, it came out more a stew than soup, but that made me even happier. I drank down all the soup at the end, which I rarely do.

At the same time, I also made the coconut chicken soup. I wanted to use up all the cilantro and fresh limes. The lemon grass was the hardest thing to get my hands on, and it did not want to chop very easily. But it was also SO GOOD. I added in mushrooms, again, because I love them. And I think of mushrooms when I think of thai-like soups. I strained out the lemon grass and lime zest after cooking because I don't like eating that, but that is up to you!

I froze about 2/3s of each recipe. I think the chicken and lime soup, even the frozen bits, is going to be eaten all up before the week is out. NOM NOM NOM.

I do adore the tumblrs. It cracks me up, most days! Some days, it makes me despair a bit. But, that's fandom, you know?

I miss when we would post long essays of fandom things and comment on each other! I wish tumblr was better about that sort of thing. It tries! But not exactly the same.

I follow random things on tumblr, but one thing a lot of my tumblr gif-friendly people write about, besides Teen Wolf (I know so much about that show and I only recently started watching it. Didn't even need a primer! :D), is Labyrinth. ...And Sailor Moon. I feel no shame but y'all are into that very much.

One of the things being passed around by a bunch of writerly type people is a talking about Sarah from Labyrinth and does she appear to be under-represented as a heroine to you, as a viewer? And it was thoughtful, so I could not help myself and wrote about it! I'm not a big meta writing, but part of why I still love Labyrinth so much is that the movie was one of the few coming of age stories about a young woman that I got to experience growing up. There was Anne McCaffery's Harper Hall trilogy and... well, Aliens and Terminator 1 & 2, that I really remember. There had to have been others, but those were the formative ones.

( So, I wrote a little bit on WHY I love Sarah )

Here is the original discussion question and replies/notes here.

I need your help, internet!

I promised myself I would at least buy myself something nice with my tax refund! Before being responsible and putting the rest either onto a credit card or paying off the last (I think) of my payment plan for my new computer/ipad.

What am I getting?

I was planning to get myself a fossil tote (they last forever, I love them!). But now, I can't decide which color! It is this tote. Good, simple, and long lasting. Good investment piece! But, black or brown?

I thought, of course, BLACK. Goes with everything, right? But, only in the winter. My spring &summer, and sometimes fall, color palette is warmer, and would most likely go better with brown. And I have a black work bag (with laptop/tablet safe pocket). BUT, black is timeless! But so is brown leather.

KSADFS;KDL WHICH???

And then this this phone wallet because sale and it is cute and I love phone wallets. Though, maybe not since I also just bought this on etsy for $15. >_< so cuuuute!

AH, HELP INTERNET!

HI THERE, INTERNET, I LOVE YOU. Did you miss me?

You all follow me on Twitter, so you see all the time that I just want to sleep or bathe in hand sanitizer. I can not see how it could go wrong to do both at the same time. NEW LIFE GOAL.

My New Year's resolutions were as follows: 1) make more healthy choices, 2) exercise twice a week, and 3) cook at home more.

I've been successful this first week, which is SUPER HARD since my schedule is pretty much this every single day: go to work 9-5, come home for an hour to frantically eat, go to rehearsal from 6:30 - 10:00pm. Do all my rehearsal and work related emails. Get to bed by midnight. Then, repeat! Sundays, the one day I don't have work nor rehearsal, I am still frantically doing things for a show, but I also cook in the afternoon for the week. I figure, if I can make myself cook regularly when I am at my most insane, I can do it when I have more free time no problem!

This week was raviolis and plain pasta in a tomato basil sauce. Some fried shrimp because they are easier to keep for a few days in the fridge. Tom yum chicken noodle soup, which is pretty much "what fresh veggies do I have? PUT IT IN" with tom yum paste. Then, these delicious things:
http://www.browneyedbaker.com/2013/07/16/tomato-mozzarella-tart-recipe/

Tomato Tarts by Brown Eyed Cook

I made some alterations. I got pastry shells instead of sheets, so I ended up making 6 individual tarts. This worked out GREAT since I then had a controlled amount of tasty that I knew the exact calorie count for. It makes a great breakfast or lunch at around 360 calories without having to send the time to make out all the dough (which I love baking but don't have time this week to wait for dough to rise).

I think I might torture the book in the face, and over here on the blog space, with "what I cooked this week" for a bit and see if that helps keep me more honest about cooking. I am hopeful! I love cooking but convince myself I never have time.

You want an actual entry? HA!

Instead, has some yuletide reveals! I loved both of the stories I wrote this year rather a lot, and they were hardly read by anyone but I don't caaaaaaaaaare, I love them!!! The people that received them seemed to have liked them, so SCORE!

CIA Disney Princess (2866 words) by wickedtrue
Chapters: 1/1
Fandom: Haywire (2011)
Rating: Teen And Up Audiences
Warnings: Author Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
Characters: Mallory Kane, Kenneth (Haywire)
Additional Tags: Girls with Guns, Gun Violence, Car Chases, Women Being Awesome
Summary:

The security system had picked up a car making its way toward their home about an hour ago. Mallory respected her father's paranoia. That was why she was sitting outside in a pair of practical shorts and a sports bra, wine glass in one hand, desert eagle in the other.

I wrote the only Haywire fic in Yuletide this year. Whatever! I love Mallory from the movie. Terribly practical and competent female marine will always pull at my trope strings!



The Old Willow Tree (6185 words) by wickedtrue
Chapters: 1/1
Fandom: The Witch's Son - auroaronkitten
Rating: Teen And Up Audiences
Warnings: Author Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
Additional Tags: Women Being Awesome
Summary:

When the Witch's Son was twelve years old, the village hung his mother from the Old Willow Tree.

"Best get on with this! You have farms to sew, cows to milk," his mother reminded the town folk. She walked to the Old Willow Tree in the center of town, leading the silent crowd. "Will this do for you?" she asked the gathered people.

Their neighbors faltered. His mother was always unexpected.

I wrote this in four hours, just before the archive closed. skygiants was a golden god and read for me close to midnight. I wrote out something before that and scraped it and started again. I love this story, and since no one really read it, it is so getting cleaned up and submitted to real reals pub. Man, I love writing fairy tales. LOVE IT.

Hey there internet.

What do I want to do for my Halloween costume? I have a performance that night, so I will be stage managing in costume and then, most likely, judging our costume contest that evening. So, I need a costume!

I feel all frumpy and mad at my body right now, so I am majorly lacking in creativity in my own Halloween costume. Others, totally! Me, not so much.

I always have a Fiona costume available for myself. Captain Marvel had a zipper injury, and I don't know if that will be repaired in time.

I don't knoooooooooow. Help me, internet! SUGGEST THINGS TO ME. I am full of failure this week. ;_;

HI YULETIDE WRITER!

You are awesome and I'm going to love what you write me. Yuletide is always such a fun thing for me, so I hope my prompts are fun for you! Everything listed here are merely suggestions, so please, go crazy and have fun!

A little about me:

You can find the stuff I write here.

I really love gen fic, comedy, character studies, and slice of life stories. I am all about laughing at those every day life things that happen to us all, those mundane life details in extraordinary stories, and stories about friendships and relationships, both grudging and deep. Ensemble fic is the best thing ever! I have such a soft spot for awesome ladies and strong female friendships. I love seeing the tiny details of the differences in cultures or locations, the history of a place, all the little things only someone that really loves a place will know. I am a GIANT history nerd, and if you can ever stick in historical details, I might swoon from joy!

I also like explosions, action, kicking ass and taking names, and cursing like a sailor. If you can get an awesome character in a space suit, blowing out an airlock and blowing up a space station while thinking "all in a day's work", I might melt from the happy.

While I do love tragedy, violence, and explosions, I do not like it to be without reason. I also do not like character bashing. While AUs can be awesome, I'd rather you stick with canon, if you can!


Now, the prompts!
( Shine On Me, Red 2, Dr. Lollipop, and Puppycat )

I am working on my noms, people! MY NOMS. This is hard.

This is what I have worked out so far:

Doctor Lollipop
- Dr. Lollipop
- Nurse Crackers
- Dr. Coco
- Dr. Woodsman

HAVE YOU PEOPLE WATCHED THIS YET? Waaaaaaaaaaatch it. Seriously, you will LOVE IT. This is going on my request list because I WANT MORE ADVENTURES OF DR. LOLLIPOP, BISHOUNEN UNICORN PHYSICIAN.


RED 2
- Han Cho-Bai
- Jack Horton
- Frank Moses
- Katya

This is also for sure going on my request list. Because I want Korean and pan-asian spy fic. With maybe Han Cho-Bai being originally burned by Frank Moses. IS THERE A NORTH KOREAN CONNECTION? Will you write me sweet, sweet nothings on evolutions of democracies from bloody dictatorships and post-colonialism? Or the rising debt issues in Asia relating to spy craft? Or people blowing shit up while being handsome in awesome suits?


Chris Dane Owens - Shine On Me

I WILL ONE DAY HAVE THE EPIC FIC THIS DESERVES.


I haven't put in a fourth, yet. I don't know. I am almost tempted to add Space Girl, but for a lot of reasons several of you know about, leery. I feel like I am forgetting something important that I wanted to add this year. Bugger.

Maybe I wanted to added more Dredd comics characters? So excited other people are getting interested in it! FOR ITS FEMALE CHARACTERS, at that!

OM NOM NOM, the things I shall write for people this year! I shall stalk many people. STALK.

I already know one of my Yuletide fandoms, y'all.

RED/RED 2 - preferably after RED 2, an after mission with Sarah, anything with Han, more Victoria and Ivan, and just EXPLOSIONS, MORE PLZ.




You thought this was going to be a real entry, didn't you? The boxes are still trying to kill me.


I might have been listening to Welcome to Night Vale too much as I go to sleep.

I have been back and forth on a masters for a while. I also just flat out need a career change.

I'm thinking outloud, internet. Tell me all your thoughts.

( Pros and Cons #1 - Foreign Service Officer )


( Choice #2 - Masters of Fine Arts - SMFA )


Can you see why I am sort of back and forth on this?

My biggest fear: I put myself in a lot of debt and then don't have a job again for two years. Or, I manage the FSO test and orals, get an offer, and I hate it. Like, I find out I hate it after I get there with no turning back. I fear getting trapped, because I am feel like I am trapped in my current job because I keep being the second choice for new jobs because there is just this thing about me (literally what my head hunter said to me).

I do not hate my job (just my supervisor). I am worth more money than I am paid, but I am very afraid I will never be able to earn my potential because of bad job markets, my lack up degree beyond a BS, and the blunt answer of "I'm a girl" in what is a mostly male industry, arts management (which is why I never accept jobs I am offered because they are below $30,000 year for really fucking demanding jobs; fucking artistic nonprofit salary ideas!!!)

I miss just being an artist. I have always been most happy then. I don't mind not having money, I just need to have enough money to take care of my bills. And maybe buy some shoes sometimes? And video games? Maybe? (This is also the "problem" with not being married: no one to lean on; it is just me, and that's okay damn it, why is it hard?)

WHAT DO YOU THINK, GUYS? Seriously, tell me.

Some of you might know about it, some not, but I have committed myself to finishing a novella this summer.

Things I have figured out: after the the first 9,000 words, finishing stories is fucking HARD. I already knew this! But I am getting a lesson yet again that I am not a big word count writing.

This month is all about finishing SPACE GIRL, the novella I have been working on. Sex positive, strong mother-daughter relationship, space pirate, revolutionary planets, scifi novella.

I'm wicked fucking excited about the story itself. My problem is fighting all the other demands on my time to finish it. I keep getting asked to manage shows or do this other creative project, and I have to keep telling people "I'm booked, sorry". BUT THEN THEY KEEP ASKING ANYWAY. ;_; Or, one group just assumed I'd do it since I expressed interest before but didn't contact me until almost six months later. Bless unorganized friends.

This coming month, since today is the last day of classes and my life slows down a little bit after this, with a few hot spots here and here, is dedicated to SPACE GIRL. I AM DOING THIS.

I might cry myself to sleep and make myself crazy doing it, BUT I'M DOING IT. And will then somehow figure out this self-publishing thing.

***

In mind weasel news, I am... a little off. I don't know why it suddenly hit be lately, but I am missing Mom a lot. I keep thinking, I should call Mom and... well. It's moments like this that I realize, since she passed away, my family does not talk to me as much nor expect my involvement in their lives very much. They just forget to send me things now. It's... upsetting, but. What can you do? I'm the only person that doesn't live within a two-hour driving distance from them, so they just don't think I need to know these things. I've told them otherwise, but multiple aunts and cousins have told me that they aren't sure what to do with me since I'm not married, I don't have kids, and I'm not looking to change that any time soon. So how should they interact with me?

That was an awesome conversation to have, fyi! What do you even say to that?! "I'm sorry that I'm almost 30 and not married, and that it weirds you out." I'm not sorry and that's not my issue.

So, I miss my Mom and I feel a little adrift in my life right now. I'm not sure what to do about it. I don't think there is something to do about it, per say. It's just that life is changing, so I am having to change with it. That's cool, but I'm a little lost while it does.

Adulthood is hard, man. Especially when you do not fit the mold for traditional "have reached adulthood" markers.

I think I will have a milkshake for my lunch today. Aw yeah!

I am still very, very angry from yesterday.

I'm fucking angry about the bombings. Fuck you.

I'm fucking angry about the media just making shit up. Fuck you!

I'm fucking angry about people on social media not even in Boston making shit up about other bombs on the T, at other landmarks, that the city was being evacuated, all their fucking bullshit. FUCK YOU! You were fucking terrifying us even more than we were! To the fuckhead that started the rumor about the bomb found in Harvard: FUCK YOU!!

I'm so fucking angry at media sources already saying it was all "those muslims and arabs" and we should "kill them all" before we even know anything. FUCK YOU!!!

I am so proud of my city, for taking care of friends when they were stuck and trapped downtown after the bombings. I am proud of the city coming together and striving to help wherever they could. I am proud of my city on twitter and facebook, how quick everyone on the ground was to say THIS IS NOT TRUE when things were announced as "credible sources" as bullshit.

I may not be from Boston originally. I'm a southern girl through and through, but I love this town. It's my home. It's a city that has been good to me all these years. For all that Bostonians shout FUCK THE T! FUCK THE GOVERNMENT! You know, we do love our town. I love just hopping on the T sometimes and exploring a new place I've never been, because there is always something new here. The people are hilarious and funny: if I'm a goof and need directions, you know, someone is always nice enough to give them. The musicians on the street corners and on the T are incredible. The improv groups and flash mobs you run into are so freaking awesome! We have massive pillow fights, water gun revolutionary re-enactments, and all the awesome science. I've made awesome friends just stuck waiting for another fucking green line to show up during a Red Sox game because the entire city is out to celebrate. I have always felt safe here.

I'm angrier and angrier as more information of what happened starts to trickle in and more analysis can be made. I'm just, I am angry. I'm angry, y'all. There, I said it. All of it.

I needed to get that out.

I think to myself, I should email people, see if they would like to do something this weekend because the weather keeps defeating me.

Then, I read the latest weather report.

DAMN IT! I give up!! I am sleeping in tomorrow and now putting on adult pants.

( More leggy updates, and adventures with medical residences! )

You have been updated! In short: MRI is planned, and no further updates. Besides that I have medically approved, very well shaped legs, feet, and "pretty" veins.

I am going to try doing a public post about my word count as long as doing getyourwordsout.

My word count for the month: 11,614

Got a little behind! I should be at 12,700 for my yearly goal, but honestly? I am so proud of me for writing that much! I am normally luck to make myself hit 2000 - 3000.

GO TEAM ME!

So, I have been reading a lot of Avengers fic lately. I have all these other books to read, good books that are awesome and from the library and have an expiration date, but I have been eating Avengers fic instead.

Gen and I have been coming home after work and playing the 'HAVE YOU READ--?' game. A lot. More than once. (It's an awesome game!)

I love me some gen fic. I love me some Steve Rogers fic. I love me some Natasha fic. I also love me some Darcy Lewis fic because I love fandom, and they made her the sex-postive fandom bicycle, AND IT IS AWESOME. I also like me some Natasha/Clint fic, I admit it. Broken spies IN LUV. I love it when there are complex relationships. With explosions. I respect that.

I shall now fill this post with many recs. PREPARE TO BE RECCED.

( there be rec dragons here )

I... have a lot of porn bookmarks. I feel no sorrow for this! There are so many bookmarks! But so many gen marks. And Clint/Natasha marks. ;_; SO MANY. I had to cut myself off.

READ IT ALL. ...some you should read at home. But almost all of them you can read at work! Because I am a giver! :D