I may not be the biggest BAMF in the room at any given time, but I certainly try to be in the top three.

I've been in the theatre for over twenty years as a little bit of everything. Yes, I have welded upside down from a second story set in nothing but gauzy underwear half hour before a show opened. I prefer to keep my hair purple. And I run very quickly in four inch heels.

I was wondering to myself yesterday, why am I suddenly REALLY attached to this plot idea in Star Wars? I like Star Wars just fine, but it isn't "my" geek thing. What's this about? And I had an epiphany and then I needed to write it down.

( CUT )

Hello dear writer!

So, you're awesome for writing something for me. I'm going to love whatever you write as long as you are having fun with it.

A little about me:

You can find the stuff I write here.

I really love gen fic, comedy, character studies, and slice of life stories. I am all about laughing at those every day life things that happen to us all, those mundane life details in extraordinary stories, and stories about friendships and relationships, both grudging and deep. Ensemble fic is the best thing ever! I have such a soft spot for awesome ladies and strong female friendships. I love seeing the tiny details of the differences in cultures or locations, the history of a place, all the little things only someone that really loves a place will know. I am a GIANT history nerd, and if you can ever stick in historical details, I might swoon from joy!

I also like explosions, action, kicking ass and taking names, and cursing like a sailor. If you can get an awesome character in a space suit, blowing out an airlock and blowing up a space station while thinking "all in a day's work", I might melt from the happy.

While I do love tragedy, violence, and explosions, I do not like it to be without reason. I also do not like character bashing. While AUs can be awesome, I'd rather you stick with canon, if you can!

(  Fandoms - The Tick (2017), Atomic Blonde, and Lucky Logan, Clue (1985), and RED (movies)  )

I'm super sad to say this, but I'm deferring a year at UNB.

It is a combination of real worry about financials for the full academic year and visa issues. I found when I went up last week and talked with immigration, there was a high probability that they would only approve my visa for a single year. There was no way I could come up with the required financial support Canada requires to have your visa approved a second time while a student. With the loonie going up and down so much, I was also really worried I would not be able to take care of myself for the whole academic year just in case I couldn't find a job.

After talking it out with several friends, I'm going to go live with Aspen for a while and hopefully go again next fall after saving up some more money. It's not what I prefer, but it is the better answer at the end of the day.

I want to say thank you to everyone that has been so supportive of me as I've slowly freaked out though this whole process.

To everyone that gave to the fundraiser, I can't give money directly back to you due to the way YouCares works. HOWEVER, I have all the money in my savings account, so I can give that back without a problem. Please just let me know how you want me to send it to you, if you see this: my email is wickedtrue [at] gmail. I'll go through and pick out the emails the fundraiser gave me and email everyone to let them know as well what is going on.

I'm moving to Canada!!

Omg, why is it so hard to move to Canada?!

As I have discovered, while calling every moving company between here, Montreal, and New Brunswick, that the Dear Leader has pissed off the Canadians with all of his railing on NAFTA, and it is now super hard to get your stuff across the border. Because hardly any moving companies are now paying the cost to be 'bonded' to move across the border. The ones that are, hardly any of them go to the tiny province I'm moving to. And of the two that would go there, only was available. ONE.

You can guess how expensive that quote was. ;_; I don't think my stuff is worth that much.

I managed to find one of those fill up & ship pod-like services, but NONE of them deliver to the New Brunswick province. As I am learning, trying to do anything outside the big, main provinces is hard! I could get it into Quebec City or Montreal, but I haven't been able to find any movers that could then take it to New Brunswick. Not a question of cost: I can't find anyone to do it. July is apparently their crazy month, and they are already filled up.

I'm at the point of either going entirely over budget on move to get it across border, or doing what I was trying to do and getting a u-haul.

I'm just old and also, I can't do it by myself. It's the 4th of July weekend. Everyone's busy. Shit.

I'm also running into problems with student visa: will I have it by then and can I get into Canada with it then? I wasn't planning on doing that! I didn't think I needed to use my student visa to move my stuff across then. But because of Trump and his poking at NAFTA, Canada is now extremely strict on rules when before they weren't. I'm talking with uni now to see what are my options because I'm in the process of getting my visa. I don't know if I will get it by the start of July, and if so, can I even use it that early? Classes don't start until Sept.

I haven't wanted to get myself across my student visa check the first time at a land crossing: they are supposed to be harder. Ug! I had a plan! UUUUUUG!

I had done all my stuff back in Feb. Damn all the transcript hell. I could have planned this ages ago!

Anyone feel like an old fashioned "let's talk about a tv show" post?

Man, I sure do! Share it around, people!

( I don't need oranges. I need to scream. )

Anyone feel like an old fashioned "let's talk about a tv show" post?

Man, I sure do! Share it around, people!

First, I feel like we should start off with a book talking post. For those that feel like talking about the book, if they so want.

You don't have to have read the book in order to watch the series, I want to highlight.

( book thoughts )

Hey dudes! Inspired by lunamystic, here is me breaking down all my regular make up and face product usage and some other random special effects stuff that I use!

In this post, I talk about skin care, body care & lotion, primers, foundation, and powder. This thing got so big and so full of product, I decided to chop it up into 2 posts. Next post will be about eyeshadow, eye liner, lip color and liner, brushes & sponges, and some specialty products like false eyelashes and other things!

I LOVE REPLIES. FILL MY INBOX.

( Heather glittery power, maaaaaake up! )

I have seen the Star Wars.

Here are my thoughts, and once you see it, you should tell me yours!

( Star Wars - my thoughts that are all spoilers! )

Hello lovely yuletide writer!

I just want you to know in advance: I'm gonna love what you write me. You are gonna write me A THING. :O! It is going to be EXCITING.

A little about me:

You can find the stuff I write here.

I really love gen fic, comedy, character studies, and slice of life stories. I am all about laughing at those every day life things that happen to us all, those mundane life details in extraordinary stories, and stories about friendships and relationships, both grudging and deep. Ensemble fic is the best thing ever! I have such a soft spot for awesome ladies and strong female friendships. I love seeing the tiny details of the differences in cultures or locations, the history of a place, all the little things only someone that really loves a place will know. I am a GIANT history nerd, and if you can ever stick in historical details, I might swoon from joy!

I also like explosions, action, kicking ass and taking names, and cursing like a sailor. If you can get an awesome character in a space suit, blowing out an airlock and blowing up a space station while thinking "all in a day's work", I might melt from the happy.

While I do love tragedy, violence, and explosions, I do not like it to be without reason. I also do not like character bashing. While AUs can be awesome, I'd rather you stick with canon, if you can!


( Fandoms: Jupiter Ascending, Miss Fisher Murder Mysteries, Crimson Peak, Bob's Burgers, Limetown podcast )

Hey dudes!

A tumblr friend asked me to write up what is your MOST FAVORITE fic you have ever written.

I've found that, the very best stuff that I write, I don't remember writing it after I get it edited and out there. Which is awesome! Because I can then read it again months later and honestly say "oooo, this was GOOD". Sometimes, "oooooh, wtf was I thinking? I should have listened to my beta."

It's hard, since I don't write a whole lot of fic, but I think my fav stand alone fic would have to be a yuletide Haywire fic.

Ex-CIA Disney Princess Kenneth (2876 words) by wickedtrue
Chapters: 1/1
Fandom: Haywire (2011)
Rating: Teen And Up Audiences
Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
Characters: Mallory Kane, Kenneth (Haywire)
Additional Tags: Girls with Guns, Gun Violence, Car Chases, Women Being Awesome
Summary:

Mallory sat in a lawn chair in the middle of her father's front yard. Which meant she was sitting in a lawn chair in the middle of nowhere desert, by her dad's solar collectors.

It was almost ten in the morning, and she took another sip of white wine. It was five o'clock somewhere, as her dad liked to say.

"Here they come," her dad told her through the radio.

The security system had picked up a car making its way toward their home about an hour ago. She respected her father's paranoia. That was why she was sitting outside in a pair of practical shorts and a sports bra, wine glass in one hand, desert eagle in the other.

So much explosions! Competent Mallory all around! Writing her and her dad making jokes about "compound defense" was fun, and I could have written a whole fic of just that. It was redneck-ish and full of jarhead jokes. I loved it!

Writing action sequences is fun but also makes me laugh the whole time. I have to twist myself up and sometimes roll about. Or, for the car scenes, make a "pretend" car dash to practice how an arm would twist to go in reverse, how the driver's shoulder would twist. I love writing stuff like that! I always have a look in my head of how things should appear to the reader, and I always hope that is actually comes through.

Hardly anyone read this fic during its yuletide, which made me sad on one hand, but on the other? FUCK IT. It was fucking awesome! A++++, would write the shit out of it again!

I had been thinking of going to Sweden this summer for an Alone Heather Big Travel Vkay. I never really travel on my own, at least for big travel.

When I used to work in the theatre and touring companies, travel was Big and involved Loads of People. I come from the sort of American family that family vacations included mom, dad, sister, at least one aunt or uncle, normally staying at some family member's home/vacation home, and included several cousins and a couple of friends. I am still a little bitter about the two times I visited Europe, I never got to wander around Paris because it was "too touristy", and I got to see the Eiffel Tower from my cousin's car as we drove into the French and Belgium country side. Which was lovely! But, I wanted to see some stuff in Paris?

When I was one my own for a few years in university, I would jump in my car, drive up and down the mountains with my camera. Or jump in the car to go for a sudden weekend escape. It was a little different, though. It was domestic and I could go home any time I choose at my convenience. A no car life does change that a bit!

This winter has sucked because I haven't been able to go around on my own very easily for weeks. The T wasn't working right, or was so delayed, you risked getting stuck some place for most of your evening. And after a lot of thought, as much as I still want to go to Sweden on my own (they mostly speak english there! ALSO, SO CHEAP), may be this summer, after a crazy snow and ice winter, is the time for a tour of the glacier parks.

I might just mutter darkly to myself "THE ICE NEVER MELTS" and be bitter bitter bitter at being cold, yet again.

WARMZ. I want to travel some place warm! jortha and I keep joking about Disney World, which I for sure want to do, but I have been kind of wanting to do a quieter vkay as well. Also, WARM.

I've decided! I may not make it out there this summer, but I am so going to this little Mom & Pop place out along the Big Sur area in central CA. Look at the reviews on this adorable place!!! I'm so doing it! Then renting a car and going up and down the coast a bit, like I have never gotten to do for fun. And drinking wine! So much wine. IT'LL BE GREAT!

Putting some links to myself so I can come back later to it:
14 things to remember when going to Big Sur
Big Sur lodging and tourist info

I've been working hard at my own new years resolution: love yourself too, you idiot.

I know I'm bad about worrying and doing things to take care of the house, take care of my volunteer work, complete stuff for my job without doing something for myself. Like, taking time for myself to just read a book. Or fanfic (I <3 u filthy fanfic!). Or, just getting myself by without doing nice things for myself. You gotta do nice stuff for yourself!

Like, lotion. I got myself nice and fancy lotion, and I take the time to give myself a mini spa before bed at night, most nights. Shockingly, all my rough patches look so much better! I love my Ro's Argan body conditioner. I just use a small amount as a night lotion with my aquaphor.

I have fallen, finally, into LUSH love. It is a limited love! I can't really go into the store, but I can order things for myself to appear magically at my door! I am allowed to spend $25 a month on getting myself a bath bomb or a new melt, and that's been a good way to make myself "hey, take yourself a relaxing bath! THERE WILL BE GLITTER." I will never feel bad about my affection for glitter, no matter how much friends and internet tease me.

I fell madly, truly, deeply in love with their seasonal Rose Jam shower gel. LOVE IT. It makes me feel happy to scrub up in the shower, and it goes so well with my perfume. It is light, not to floral, hangs around a little after the shower, and brightens my morning. I'll even put some in my hair after I wash it but before conditioning so I can get hit with the smell when I flip my hair. It then had a buy one, get one free sale for new years, so I bought four more. That means I'll be good until next christmas, right? It is seasonal, but you can still get it in a gift pack online.

My favorite perfume for ages was Flower by Kenzo, but even then, not really a "perfume" person. I still don't think I am, but I rediscovered Black Phoenix Alchemy when I was last at Dragon*Con, and that has been lovely. I have got myself 3 giant oil based scents, and I'M GOOD.

My faaaaaaav is Jareth. The staff found a sample for us to try when a group of us were walking around with Goblin King genarti. NO REGRETS. It is subtle, clean, with a faint floral but musky. I love it.

I also got myself Fight which I adore, tho I don't think it makes me smell like death? Maybe Endless Death. It makes me happy! I like wearing it with a floral dress and boots, running around Boston.

I bought Hal blind. I liked how it was described! And it will be my last purchase, hopefully, because I love it. I don't need more! It is all jasmine, and I love jasmine and I would marry it if I could.



I know that was all STUFF that I am buying for myself. But, it means that I spend time on myself. I got a thing! That I spent my small disposable income on! I MUST USE IT, MUST NOT WASTE IT. Sometimes, stupid stuff like that helps to make me do things for myself.

Last chance to add post requests, dears! Going to start tonight and just go in order!

So Monday!

I have cute hair and cute sweater today, tho! :D Twitter should prepare itself for selfies. (I like selfies. I don't think they are vain, honestly. I think I look awesome and I want to share! That is fucking HARD for a woman to want to do in this day and age!)

Hey dudes!

I am trying to get back into writing things regularly on the blog thing. I love you! Like I love twitter! But I want to write on here more. I love reading you guys!

Instead of doing the "every day of December" meme going around, I'm going with "15 days of trying to be consecutive but probs failing and doing every few days" writing meme. Pick a day and give me a topic! DOOOO IT.

Please? :D

( 15 Days of Writing )

Hey there, awesome yuletide writer!!

You are awesome and I'm going to love whatever you write me. Yuletide is one of my fav fic exchanges, and I love writing lots for it each year. Everything listed here are merely suggestions, so please, go crazy and have fun!

A little about me:

You can find the stuff I write here.

I really love gen fic, comedy, character studies, and slice of life stories. I am all about laughing at those every day life things that happen to us all, those mundane life details in extraordinary stories, and stories about friendships and relationships, both grudging and deep. Ensemble fic is the best thing ever! I have such a soft spot for awesome ladies and strong female friendships. I love seeing the tiny details of the differences in cultures or locations, the history of a place, all the little things only someone that really loves a place will know. I am a GIANT history nerd, and if you can ever stick in historical details, I might swoon from joy!

I also like explosions, action, kicking ass and taking names, and cursing like a sailor. If you can get an awesome character in a space suit, blowing out an airlock and blowing up a space station while thinking "all in a day's work", I might melt from the happy.

While I do love tragedy, violence, and explosions, I do not like it to be without reason. I also do not like character bashing. While AUs can be awesome, I'd rather you stick with canon, if you can!


Now, the prompts!

( Sailor Moon Crystal, Silver Spoon, Monthly Girls' Nozaki-kun, Wendy Trilogy - S. J. Tucker, Aliens )

I want to start off by saying, I'm sorry this space has been nothing but "sad, depression" stuff for the last... long period of time. I'm very sorry, and thank you all for sticking around.

One of the many things I am working on, as a person, is how I feel about my body. I admit, I've had some not great thoughts about it. Some right there in that I refer to my body as 'it'. Not me. >_< I'm working on it!

I went out on the internet and made myself a sort of inspiration board, I think is the best way to describe it. That these women look awesome just as they are and love themselves, and so do (can) I. Sharing things like this helps me. Thank you for reading, if you do!

Loads of images behind cuts.

( women with curves and bumps and extra round bits. Suggested nudity and nudity. NSFW )

( I think the big inspiration, tho, is this lady: London Andrews. NSFW. This is what I want for myself. I can fucking do this! )

So, yes. Giant board of inspiration for myself. Thank you, guys, for reading.

Hey internet!

There is a lot of stuff happening with me lately. But a big thing that, on doctor requirement, I am stepping up the fitness.

I just joined up a Fitocracy group with an online trainer, Bodyweight Training for strength building. I'm SUPER excited about it, also wanted to share in case it interested anyone. Starts Aug 4th.

I'm doing my push and squat challenge at home and the best I can with my knowledges. DOING THIS THING.

Hey there, internet.

I am focusing on HAPPY THINGS.

I have committed myself to my cosplay for Dragon*Con and at least one for Boston Comic Con. Then they will be in rotation FOREVER.

Black Widow is eeeeeh. I am still having a fight with the wig. It just won't get RED enough, which I figured out because it is actually a BLONDE WIG that was vat dyed. My hatred of the place I got this thing continues. I'm going to red-ify it once more this week. I have all my belts already because ahaha. I should get some plastic guns since I think I just have space guns in my bin o' cosplay weapons (yes, I have a bin). I will then need to get a new black unitard, make some Widow's bite things, and Shield logo patches, and ta da, done.

Sailor Venus is looking like one of the more expensive cosplays I've done since I have to get a lot of stuff rather than make myself. And that's with making full Mass Effect armor. >_< Got this wig in light blonde along with some add in bangs. Hoping the color works! I'm for sure doing the glue your eyebrows thing so I can paint on some blonde eyebrows that better match.

Working out with an etsy artist for the fuku since the fuck if I can make a spandex based sailor suit. I'm just not that good of a seamstress! I'll give her my measurements later in July as I finish this last round of my exercise regime. I've lost weight! Not a lot. And I can't tell if I've lost any inches on my waist, which is what I would like to happen. We'll see! Only in week 2? (pleeeeeease with the healthy!)

I'm hoping to make the Holy Sword from what I have around the house in thermal plastics and foam. Maybe a rod from home depot as the base. And shoes, ug, have to figure THAT out. Shoes that are both in character, and I can walk in for 8 hours on my gimpy leg. Fun! Trying to decide if I want to get a belt as well. I waaaaanna! Will the budget let me? (The budget says FUCK YOU to me already)

And then Bee from Bee and Puppycat. Already have a wig since I buy waaaaaaay too many wigs from ebay. I'm still trying to decide if I will get a yellow sweater and stick a bee on that or get something that is already made. Yellow crew neck sweaters in my size are actually hard to find! I keep finding v-neck or cardis. I need to put a peter pan collar on this, people!! I'll figure out this one after I close out this show. It should be a simple piece.

Why do I have such expensive hobbies? I shouldn't. But wiiiiiiigs and building stuuuuuuuuuff.

What are you dooooooing, internet? I know I don't exist on chats and haven't in years, but I do like talking with you. What is uuuuuup?

We are revising the schedule for the week!


Day #1 (Sunday)
warm up
15 min cardio on exercise bike
JNL's No Wiggle Room work out except without dips because I don't have something I can do dips on without murdering myself.

I did one cycle with 3 lbs weights to test it out. Good choice! Not at all bad, but feel it in my arms today.


Day #2 (Monday)
I have rehearsal until 10:30pm on top of work these nights. Self, that was silly of you to think you can do exercise right after and sleep.

Instead, I walked into work, backed to T stop and back at lunch, then walked home from rehearsal. About 3.5 miles total? Little over an hour of walking time? Good job, self.


Day #3 (Tuesday)
Long day with day long interviewee. I came home and slept. Good job, team self! You did need that sleep. Anxiety dreams have been harsh on you this week.


Day #4 (Weds)
Got off work early, rested, and now exercising!

warm up
tank top arms - a different one from the first linked. I like this more; I feel it in my shoulders more, which need a lot of work.
yoga for better posture - this included a cool down, so no other cool down needed!

Day #5 (Thursday)
Since I left this off in my original plan! WHOOPS.

warm up
low impact kick boxing - my thighs both love and hate this
standing abs!
relaxing yoga/pilates with long stretches - I have extremely tight calves and hips, so most exercising for me is lots of stretching and strengthening. I can't do a lot of intense cardio, so this is my bread and butter.

Day #6 (Friday - Bonus day!)
If I can get up early in the morning, I can do this!

quiet low impact work out

Otherwise, do bedtime yoga again after D&D. Or cry myself to sleep. Unclear which yet!

Can't afford the gym nor easily get to the free one, wheeeee! So, I'm body weight exercising it up. No fucking excuses, self.

Day #1 (Sunday)
warm up
15 min cardio on exercise bike
JNL's No Wiggle Room work out except without dips because I don't have something I can do dips on without murdering myself.

I did one cycle with 3 lbs weights to test it out. Good choice! Not at all bad, but feel it in my arms today.


Day #2 (Monday)
I get to do this tonight after rehearsal since I did not wake up early (stupid insomnia and anxiety dreams).

warm up
standing abs!
yoga


Day #3 (Tuesday)
lower back yoga
more yoga


Day #4 (Weds)
warm up
arms
even more different yoga
yoga cool down


Day #5
This is D&D day. I'll be crying at jothra as she leaves me in plot cliff hangs because she likes the sounds of my wails.


And then I start over again on Saturday. Whee? I'M GONNA DO THIS.